
i use to view myself as rather flakey — jumping from one interest to another. I can never just simply be “a part” of something i am interested in, i have to “own” it. over a decade ago, i couldn’t just be in a play. i had to manage or be an overseer of my fellow thespians. later on in my journey when i saw that people could make their own candles, i couldn’t just purchase one of their candles, take it home and enjoy it. i had to start making and selling my own candle line… which i enjoyed immensely. especially since i had an infant at the time and needed to have a silent type of play time that was just for me. not to say that being a nurturing mama wasn’t enough… later on …i saw that i could make soaps, lotions, etc. sold those. then i saw that i could make salves and herbal teas. made flashy labels, made homemade looking labels. set up shop at a farmer’s market and did quite well. several years ago i couldn’t “just get a massage”, i had to become a massage therapist…and of course i couldn’t work for somebody else. i had to have a house where i could set up my own practice. the point is, i can never just experience something, i have to own it. and when i am a part of something i am passionate about it. the enthusiasm really is legit. and i get so many people involved in what i am doing. i give people whiplash with all of my latest shenanigans. even tho i have enjoyed each new hobby or interest with a fierce passion, i have felt sort of flakey, ya know? how is that one little person can be so excited about so many things — get so many people involved and then shift shapes on them? again and again? a few weeks ago i was feeling like i cannot commit to anything. even the fun things. i was looking at my shape-shifting as a flaw. i started to really think about the bottom line as to why i change so much and wondering why i didn’t have any stability in any of my interests. lucky for my sanity, i like the practice of getting still and listening when it’s time to get good and serious about something. a few weeks ago, i took these questions to my getting still retreat and got some favorable answers. here is what i was told: “your true interest has never changed. in fact your TRUE interest has always been as consistent as the honey you use to sweeten your homemade herbal tea with… you are interested in creativity. you are interested in learning. you are a consistent learner, creator and marketer. you haven’t changed a bit. the essence of who you are has been consistent throughout your bohemian eclectic journey. don’t undermine who you are. celebrate the fact that you love to learn and create and draw other people into your experiences.” and with that sweet piece of epiphany, guess what i did? i owned that too!
latest interest include, but are not limited to:
pin-up photography & editing
flamboyant picture frames and hair pin making
zen-sational green (aromatherapy) house cleaning
scentsy – multi-level marketing